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Just life

Sometimes I want NORMAL things & sometimes I DON’T

Born, grow, reproduce and die.

Get the best notes in school, have a remunerable job, meet the guy of my dreams, form a family, buy a car, buy a house, have a dog, work and work until retired and die.

I’m not sure if that’s for me.

Yes sometimes I want a NORMAL relationship, have my own family, be a mom, be with my hubbie… oooh but What a Wonderful Life! But then I DON’T, I don’t want nothing from that, I just wanna be free don’t have the responsibility to take care of someone, I want wind blow in my face, be the owner of my time and just to be happy.

Is the search of something else? There’s a lot of things I wanna do before nothing happens.

Sometimes I want conformity, I think things would be simpler. But then I feel fire inside me (metaphorically) that doesn’t leave me alone, that doesn’t let me to desire normal things.

One day a friend told me:
– Is the search for those who have the courage to question the lifestyle imposed on us. Some will always argue between the chosen and the imposition

Sometimes is hard and melancholic to see what other people are accomplished in their personal life, when you haven’t. But I trust my guts to discover myself, travel, learn, be in constant movement and to know what I want.

Time, here we go!

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Building ideas

Since elementary school I wasn’t an excellent “A” student. When I was in the mood I could be at the same level as the best from the class, but I remember that for general classes were boring for me.

Being at the University I remember getting excited when I failed a test, the first not past ever in my life. I love it! ’cause I never had a bad note in my life and didn’t know what it feels like.

I remember this teacher that I didn’t like her to much and she give a very low grade. I really didn’t care, I remember that it wasn’t worth it, that never a grade would define my capabilities.

I always hated homework and test, why just to have a binary result? yes or not, bad or wrong. Instead to foment the comprehension, a dialog or find a way to recognize the different abilities from kids.

Today I see a lot of disorganization around me, with fear to use the intuition, the logic or just experiment.

Is this because has always been safe to think about past or failed?

Now  that I’m in the entrepreneurial world, I have realized I have found my environment. I identified with dreamers, not conformist, with people that want adventure. That love to be different.

Being in a desktop work for more than a year killed me. Now I’m happy, I have my ups and downs, but every day is an adventure.

I don’t know what will be about my future as entrepreneur, I hope I have failure and not be sad to long and stand up and continue to have this work of adventure and uncertainty.

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Being just the society spectations kills an entrepreneur

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Building ideas

Today was my first networking event in San Diego, actually since I arrived to Tijuana (2 months ago) I never went to an event. It opened mi eyes and mind about the develop of the Economy in California and San Diego, in terms of infrastructure and technology. I liked to know what is happening in the startup ecosystem and how I can involve.

Today I end so tired. I woke at 4AM so I can be on time to the event, waiting more than an hour to cross to US. It broke me down very much, so tired. But I realize I love it, I’m a SCOUT, love to explore new ecosystems. And that’s exactly I want to do for a long logn time. I want to met people with new, fresh ideas. I want to know new contexts. I want to move me from my confort set of mind to crazy or irrelevant ideas.

I’m so excited for the new opportunities that are coming. No doubt this time has been a key factor for me to grow, and being in my parents house has been very comfortable. But I want discomfort and challenges.

Mi goal is to remain in Tijuana this year, and by 2014 move to California.

Is just a matter of work, disciplined and patience.

New ecosystem, new experiences

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